i survive
this is how
i pet the cat
she say, “meow”

yeeeah.

i’m trying to use dystopia but… it’s not really usable for me yet.

ended up just coming on here today. which is a good thing. kbin deserves all the love.

it’s just that so much is still over on reddit.

cats when they do something wrong: :3c

cinnamon toast crunch

not since the shrimp incident…

and i’m testing the seven seas. arrr! 🏴‍☠️

i haven’t tried this yet, but here you go: https://kbin.social/m/BotIt

edit: wow major brain fart. you DON’T want bots. i thought this was like “can we not just use bots?” my bad

might go to the gym tomorrow, but honestly hoping i don’t unless i feel significantly better. past 2.5 weeks have been rough on my mind and body; feeling super scarily depressed and drained and exhausted, had a massive breakdown this morning. just hoping i can relax as much as possible and be gentle with myself. i know some may say the gym is good for mental health and all that, but for me it can be draining, especially if i’m already feeling low. and with my current level of dysregulation, i might feel more socially anxious/paranoid. if i do feel well enough, though, it’ll be good to get back on track with that.

if any linux users would like to try and make me feel better - whyyyyyyyyyyy won’t debian 12 boot, grub keeps whining about like 14 failed sectors??? but my ssd should be okay, it’s only a year old and macos (mid-2012 macbook pro) is running fine on the other partition??? i keep reinstalling linux and it just does not care, i tried update-grub and it does not caaaarrreeeeeeeeee

they won’t

i tried to move my 100k subscriber sub to kbin (i also offered two different chatrooms)

6 came to kbin and people started attacking me for having the sub closed (one person even resorted to transphobia like jesus fucking christ) and being “political” and one person even made their own version of my subreddit

moving is too much work (it’s actually not that much work, but since we now need two videos playing at the same time and can only watch those vids for 30 seconds, everything is “too much work”). that’s why people are still on facebook, twitter, instagram, and tiktok.

i’m very glad there’s an acceptable amount of activity on the “threadiverse” right now… but i just don’t have hope that everyone will leave.

THANK YOU ESTONIA, HAPPY PRIDE

downvotes REALLY bother me. why it bothers me personally: i have severe mental health issues (to the point of disability). due to how i grew up, i heavily internalized being and accepting that i’m always bad and horrible and wrong and punishing myself for it. when i get criticized or downvoted - even if it’s silly - i feel HORRIBLE, because obviously i MUST’VE done something VERY BAD and VERY WRONG and i must be PUNISHED and i must CORRECT. and it’s even more frustrating when i don’t know what to correct. bonus, i have autism and adhd, so i can say things considered “wrong” and not know why, but people won’t explain it to me because apparently i should magically know. and i don’t want to be a bad person, but now i’m suddenly a bad person and i don’t know what to do about it.

this is just ME. i don’t think it applies to most people. and inb4 “bruh it’s just a downvote, it’s not that deep, touch grass” AGREED. BIG AGREE. but if you understand anything about psychology, it can take a very long time to undo stuff that’s so deeply ingrained from childhood, if it can be undone at all. i have actually heavily improved in this area in terms of recognizing i’m not necessarily wrong and rarely need to be punished, but the emotional reaction sadly has not changed much.

also, some (not all) people just seem to use downvotes as a personal attack, and that’s just annoying as hell. i think people can relate to this much more.

i try hard not to downvote, because i don’t think it’s necessary most of the time. people seem to downvote the silliest things…

people downvoting don’t understand a parody account

ye

i’ve caved a few times today, briefly. and i’m frustrated because reddit is basically google for me. i go to it for a lot of info. the fediverse can’t do that just yet. if it becomes popular it will, but yeah. not yet.

and it’s good for random info too. like even when i’m not looking for anything. i’m already subscribed to topics i care about. so i will see relevant things.

other sites aren’t really fulfilling that for me right now.